“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson
I’m a seeker, I won’t deny it. I know that a lot of people may consider my path a little unconventional at best, but I don’t mind. I’m not a zealot, I mostly keep my ideas to myself because, frankly, I don’t follow any one creed or religion and I try to respect the beliefs of others. However, I believe that the creation stories of many religions are similar. The lives of Krishna and Christ are virtually the same. Instead of arguing the legitimacy of one religion or another, I search for the magic that manifests when I meditate, pray, chant and sing. This is what brings me closer to the universe or the higher power that created us all. And, when we are closer to our own divine spirit, magic really does happen.
Before my sobriety, I was a resounding atheist. I had no use for organized religion, gods or saints. I was miserable and self-serving and generally angry. But then, something unmiraculous happened. One day, I just reached my limit. My limit of numbness and bad company and self-loathing. I realized that no one was going to save me, I would have to do it myself.
I still didn’t care much for organized religion, but I felt that there must be more to spirituality than the gathering place and I began to search on my own. I read the Bible, the Torah, the Koran, the Bhagavad Gita and everything in between. What I found are many more similarities than differences and that all religious texts impart lessons on how to be closer to the sacred source of creation.
I think many people wring their hands and suffer because they don’t grasp that each one of us has the power to find that space between the earth and the divine. The space that can be found when we are still in our mind, even when our bodies are in motion.
When I moved to France, I didn’t speak French. It took me a very long time to be able to communicate in my second language. But, in the years that I was too timid to speak, I had time to reflect. I turned all of my thoughts inward and found that through creating with my hands, I found peace. I studied cooking, ceramics, painting, knitting, sewing and practically every art medium under the sun. I started running, hiking and tried yoga.
Like many others before, I have became a believer that our thoughts and words manifest our actions, not vice versa. There is a space that is as close as we can get to the divine when our minds are still and one positive thought can void a handful of negative thoughts. When we are quiet and focus our thoughts on positivity, we can manifest positive things into our lives. When we use our energy to create beauty, we will attract even more beauty. When we choose to speak positively, we will unintentionally surround ourselves with others who speak positively.